这个世界，真是奇怪，你为一个人一切的一切设想的时候，他就可以什么都不想了。
等到一天，你们分开，他开始为别人设想，你才意识到，其实他的聪明和智慧，是可以设想的那么周到。当初，为什么他就没有为你想过呢？
到了这个时候，是他的问题，还是你的问题呢？
如今面对同样的问题，你为他想得多，他反而为你想得少，难道这个时间上，讲究的，不是平等，不是一份耕耘，一份收获么？
那我，该拿什么来爱你？
水月庵的第一柱香
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
Monday, January 19, 2004
In one sense or another, i had managed to finish the project with Prof. Perkins. Staying up late with concentration, i always got amazing surprise. This time, one of my most eagerly expected, paper publication!!
This brings back me my confidence again. First of all, i know my master work is not useless and this may well inspire me to another journal paper by further revising it. Then, that means, i would have a trip to Phoenix, Arizona. Last, this is a good sign for my draft now working on. Make the best shot! :D
Good, the conference would be There.
This brings back me my confidence again. First of all, i know my master work is not useless and this may well inspire me to another journal paper by further revising it. Then, that means, i would have a trip to Phoenix, Arizona. Last, this is a good sign for my draft now working on. Make the best shot! :D
Good, the conference would be There.
Sunday, January 18, 2004
I did not visit you yesterday!!
Isn't it amazing? However, self-control has come up to be my most distructive problem now... I need to figure out measures to prevent myself from further degrading... :(
Work hard, don't die before deadlines!
Isn't it amazing? However, self-control has come up to be my most distructive problem now... I need to figure out measures to prevent myself from further degrading... :(
Work hard, don't die before deadlines!
Friday, January 16, 2004
Okay. i finished meeting boss. This is not that hard as i had originally imagined. He is not at all feel bad about me. On the other hand, his attitude made me feel like be honored. He value much work i had done, and encouraged me to work more. Now i am reenergized with all the confidence and happy feeling, which might well encourage me to achieve more.
This is a long weekend, but i had planned to make full use of it.
Tonight, solve the problem and work out the close form solution to the optimization problem. Always get down and touch the ground.
This is a long weekend, but i had planned to make full use of it.
Tonight, solve the problem and work out the close form solution to the optimization problem. Always get down and touch the ground.
It would definitely be a tough day... This may be hard, but i would try my best.
Meet boss during the noon and hopefully, I can get everything through... :)
Be confident, just as we agreed!
Meet boss during the noon and hopefully, I can get everything through... :)
Be confident, just as we agreed!
Thursday, January 15, 2004
Self-encouragement Session:
Confidence. Dear Brenda, this is the only way to go. You can to calm down and handle all these. No one can take your place and do these for you instead. Think of Darryl. He had family but still need to work out everything. How can you just pretend to be incapable.
Take a deep breath, and you are sure are to win the battle. Victory belongs to this confident girl!!
With love and trust.
Confidence. Dear Brenda, this is the only way to go. You can to calm down and handle all these. No one can take your place and do these for you instead. Think of Darryl. He had family but still need to work out everything. How can you just pretend to be incapable.
Take a deep breath, and you are sure are to win the battle. Victory belongs to this confident girl!!
With love and trust.
No reasonable good sleep for days, I felt i am exhausted.
Just now, i checked his itnerary. No good news for me. Jan 21 -- Jan 29. Only one week. It feels terrible to see him come and go. What shall I do? This is hard time for the whole world. Nothing seems to go smooth and good enough to walk along. It gets me crazy.
Today, up to now, i did not work on anything yet. The whole brain is like dumped into some dirty water. I cannot see clear or hear clear. Am I okay?
I had to survive this time. The submission has to be a successful one! I need publications. There is not other alternative this time. Just relax. I believe I can handle it.
Weblog, good thing, and good one to talk to. :) May I all the best!
Just now, i checked his itnerary. No good news for me. Jan 21 -- Jan 29. Only one week. It feels terrible to see him come and go. What shall I do? This is hard time for the whole world. Nothing seems to go smooth and good enough to walk along. It gets me crazy.
Today, up to now, i did not work on anything yet. The whole brain is like dumped into some dirty water. I cannot see clear or hear clear. Am I okay?
I had to survive this time. The submission has to be a successful one! I need publications. There is not other alternative this time. Just relax. I believe I can handle it.
Weblog, good thing, and good one to talk to. :) May I all the best!
Another terrible day, but felt much better now.
I went to swim even it is sooooo cold. The water is clear and cool, which is just all right to give me a clear brain to work another three hours.
Feels cheerful when boss finally started to read my report and comments are very "fatal". He forgot many things we had been talking for several time. This makes me feel better, since he was lagged behind me.
However, on the other hand, i am dragged around by the feeling
I went to swim even it is sooooo cold. The water is clear and cool, which is just all right to give me a clear brain to work another three hours.
Feels cheerful when boss finally started to read my report and comments are very "fatal". He forgot many things we had been talking for several time. This makes me feel better, since he was lagged behind me.
However, on the other hand, i am dragged around by the feeling
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
Good to start another day when everything starts to move.
Now i started to doubt if this blog is going to be my mubble-jumbble toward my supervisor. Just like today, we had several email exachange on emails and found out i had been working on a much harder problem as he expected. Then, i have to go all the way back and debugged my old program. Yes, i had it there for quite a while and he diverted me to that problem... Not what I had expected...
Anyway, good to oblidged myself to work faster... Not bad. Right?
Superb good news for myself: i had my own channel on BlogChina: of Li Wan'er.
Now i started to doubt if this blog is going to be my mubble-jumbble toward my supervisor. Just like today, we had several email exachange on emails and found out i had been working on a much harder problem as he expected. Then, i have to go all the way back and debugged my old program. Yes, i had it there for quite a while and he diverted me to that problem... Not what I had expected...
Anyway, good to oblidged myself to work faster... Not bad. Right?
Superb good news for myself: i had my own channel on BlogChina: of Li Wan'er.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Boss started to push me. This is good news. From now on, I need to work terribly hard before getting blamed again.
Hardworking Cinderalla
Hardworking Cinderalla
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I just took one interesting networking lecture by Yannis. This is the first time I had ever listened to a MIT guy mentioned the history of Internet. Funny that throughout the listings, everyone either worked out the idea in MIT, or had stayed there for a while.
Remember I had met with Lee, the father of WWW, he recalled only everything in west coast.
Would I later only knows stories of east coast, or something similar? Pity that life can go through only once...
I just took one interesting networking lecture by Yannis. This is the first time I had ever listened to a MIT guy mentioned the history of Internet. Funny that throughout the listings, everyone either worked out the idea in MIT, or had stayed there for a while.
Remember I had met with Lee, the father of WWW, he recalled only everything in west coast.
Would I later only knows stories of east coast, or something similar? Pity that life can go through only once...
The fancy literature world of Cinderalla to share with friends.
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